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the mid-autumn day is over and i am back again. the feelings in mid-autumn is not only happy but complex. i have talked about happiness before. but now it is different. for me the happiest thing is the happiness from my family. i will be sad if there is any debate or disagreement between families. but the night before my leaving home, i got confused and depressed.  because of the age , my elder sister decided to marry a boy who was not so good to fit my sister in mum’s eyes. so mum didn’t make enough preparation for the wedding and it was hard to promise. they were discussing when i left home. i didn’t know how and what to do. just unhappy!

today i went shopping and bought a new hat. tomorrow i am going back home . the day after tomorrow is the traditional festival —-mid-autumn day, and i will enjoy it with dear families . two days after tomorrow i will have to be back for part-time job. these days many has discussed happiness on the web. different people, different ideas. for me ,at present enjoying mid-autumn day with mum is happy , though there is only 3 days. 

this morning, on the way to the libray, i got the phone from the collage director. she asked me to gether someone to do something.  it was about 8:00 at that time. then i called some of classmates . the responses are either no booting or no answer. at last a senior promised to go . i was a little angry so decided to close the press and not to answer their questions. when going to back to the dormitory i open my phone. what i received was the disagreement from the one who promised to go. but time was past. i would forget it.it was 10:20, 40 min earlier than the lunch. so i went back to the dormitory with a little angry. and decided no to say hello to anyone and not go for lunch with them. at last i was determind not to have lunch.however, i am hungry now. hey! i had better to relax and have lunch! after all, most did not mean to refuse my call, there must be some reasons. forgive them and have lunch!

when i was a child, i liked doing anything as what i wanted.take qurrel for example, i tried to win each time, even cansuitry. because of the strengh, few kids would like to play with me. then i decided to change and tried to consider in other’s point of view.at present, i am used not to forcing others to do anything. in my mind,do something we just can or can’t. there is no middle state. but not everyone agree with me. in other’s view, if being pleasing the one who decide the result , his or her demands may be met. these who like to do something carefully and asking for other to help them always think for themselves and take the help for granted. if their demand could not be met, they would be disappointed and complaining.today, one friend went to copy some material , but the printing shop was too busy to finish it today. so the girl begged the boss and i helped to persuade the boss. at last , she decided to help us. but when knowing the demand of my friend, i found it was so hard and would take too much time, but she, my friend was always saying it was not too much , just few pages. oh , my god, if me, i must can’t stand and rufuse to help her. however, the girl boss promised her , and did that at once. but, when her ask was finished, she asked to copy another 30 pages. this time , the boss was not satisfied, and refused to do because she was really busy. but my friend insisted that the boss should do as she promised and go on to copy her pages. she was angry too, because she though she paid for it .in fact i can’t agree with her. because at first we begged for the first help , there is no business about money, they are really busy. so whatever we should thank for her help rather than ask more because you pay for that.  

i know some information here about the skype, a kind of software serving for chating. then i check it on baidu.com. with a little knowledge i download it, and soon become a resgistered user. but in the process of registering, it fail because the name has already been used. so i have to change to another one. but i still have no idea about how to chat with foreigners. then i try to find some one with the name what i want at first. when facing the result, i find there are so many chinese there . of course , some foreigners are there. so i choose an american sending a message and wonder if he/she could get the message. but no answers. then another one, still no answers . and the third one , no answers . so i give it up. i don’t know whether there is something wrong with the software here or they didn’t catch the regards or maybe they were too busy or popular! maybe other reason else! whatever i don’t know and don’t care. i will try again tomorrow!

this afternoon,the partner was absent from the class . so i was alone after class. i always felt a little weird and awkward when walking in the street without any partners . it looks like that i am not popular. after the course of oral english , i asked some of classmates back to the dormitory together. but it failed . everyone has something of their own to do. it seems that the one who don’t have the important thing to do is just me .on the way alone to the dorm, i came across two and so we were partners. but in the middle they went another way . as a result i was single again. the day before i have had a blog “enjoy loneness”, at that time i really wanted it.and i am not afraid to be lonely in a quiet place. just don’t like be single in public. now think it over , no one could be with you for ever even your parends or wife/husband. there are some words in a song “loneness is the happiness of one, binge shows the loneness of  a group”. yes i have to get used of being alone and face it directly!

it is 8 years before when i first got the word “enjoy loneness” from the chinese teacher. it was hard to understand. but with the growth, i could catch the meanings partly! loneness helps to achieve success. and a success man must be patient to loneness.because only when calm could we think something carefully and profoundly , and when lonely we are calm. i am used to be alone and sometimes like it very much, not only because it could make me calm but i can do what i want freely  and quickly without care of others. since the begin of this semester, my roommate stayed at home at most time. and so i could be alone in the dorm most nights. i like it! but this week she will be back . hard to keep the loneness! but fortunately, it will be back next week! enjoy loneness!

it is so cold today and the highest temperature is only 16 degree in tianjin. and in the morning, though with the sunshine, the cold wind is blowing till now like flying swords. i am afraid of being blowed away! so without anything specia, i would prefer to staying in the dormitory alone. but , it is not better than the outside. i still have to in a cotton dress! it changed suddenly and is too hard to get used with the cold weather!